Bargayott's Last Post

How dramatic that sounds. But yes this post is going to be my last. The year-long collaboration of bargayott-valjusha has come to a close. Today I've completed 19 years and I'm not bored and high school is over. This blog belongs to our high school time. Now it's on to new beginnings and new inspirations (and new blogs?).

I think I speak for both Valjusha and myself when I say that we got lots of fun and laughs out of our blog (especially out of certain committed commenters) and possibly inspired a few of our readers, which was our goal in the first place.

So, so long, and thanks for all the flowers ;-)

by bargayott

I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And what do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. But I am horribly limited.

— Sylvia Plath

by valjusha

My sunday

by valjusha

6 things that make me sad

- not being able to fulfill people's expectations

- jobs like: teacher, or any job at the hotel. Because in these jobs you constantly get to know people, who will eventually leave after a while. And most of the people working for a long time in this kind of job will lose their enthousiasm and will stop to really wanting to get to know the person behind the person, because they know that this person will leave soon and another one is going to take this place. I could never do such a job, because it would break my heart to find out one day that I am indifferent to people.

- seeing on trashy German tv a reportage about an ex-drug-addict couple, who got a little appartment from the state after they did rehab. So far so good. But they somehow lost their will to do something in their lives and so they are lying all day on their bed, watching tv, eating and throwing the garbage on the floor. Which leads to a sea of paper, trash, flith, and in the middle of this sea is the bed with the two people, saying: "Tomorrow we will stand up and clean up our appartment, we won't watch tv, but we will start looking for a job, tomorrow we will start anew." This is my version of hell. I saw this reportage when I was a kid and I still think about it often.

-realizing that you love some things not for themselves, but for the idea that is behind loving them. When I was a kid I tried to collect stamps, but after a while I realized that I actually didn't really like the action of collecting stamps, but I liked doing it because one of my favourite charakters in a Astrid Lindgren book did it.

-being overly self-conscious

-that certain time, around 3:30 am, when you sometimes wake up and all your problems in life seem worse and you are so sad that it makes you sick and you are sure you won't be able to sleep anymore at all, but eventually you fall asleep and when you wake up life is better, but I am still so afraid of that certain hour.

by valjusha

a summer song

by valjusha

Trafalgar

Surprise Party

The turntable hacked up a melancholy blues
The air was heavy with dust and odors
Several zazous danced while holding to their hearts
Short girls with spasmodic behinds

In a closet, an amateur obstetrics couple
Delivered themselves to games full of art and naivete
Another in a corner attempted with ardor
Tonsil-coupling, to music.

Hands encountered one another under too-short skirts
Drunk, two lovebirds—(what if I said: two dodos?)
Looked everywhere for a bed; they were all full…

Let this happy youth screw itself
Why eradicate from them this impure manure
If their hope restricts itself to rubbing membranes?

Boris Vian

Not in the mood to write about poached eggs anymore.

Will be back after the summer holidays, full of new inspiration for so so many blogposts.

valjusha

"Hot town, summer in the city"

Ahhhh, did you hear the line in the song: "Running up the stairs, gonna meet you on the rooftop."? Hach... And how nice is this rooftop? :
Now, let's continue with summery stuff. Of course you have to drink a lot when it is hot and summer is also the perfect time in the year to drink cocktails. I randomly found this pic on the internet and it seems like a drink I would like to try! (Despite the cucumbers (which reminds me of the one time Quin ordered a drink with cucumber in it!))

Next, fashion, summerclothes! I am looking for a red, red, red bikini! And here some pics of clothes I like:



(Having a bit of a stripes overload... so I told me: you are still allowed to wear stripes, but you are not allowed to buy anything stripy anymore!)











And last but not least two summery pics that just give me a summerfeeling everytime I look at them:


by valjusha